There are moments in life when, despite being surrounded by people, you feel an overwhelming emptiness, as if there is an abyss between you and the world around you. It is a state of inner isolation, a kind of spiritual silence that makes you wonder whether you have ever truly encountered anyone, or if love and friendship are, at their core, mere projections of your own desires and needs.
Perhaps, at some point, in deep moments of solitude, we realize that we are prisoners of our own condition. No matter how many people are around us, we cannot escape the reality that, in essence, each of us is alone. Love, connections, all our relationships with others are, at their deepest level, a search for something that cannot be found outside ourselves – a search for a deeper connection that often remains inaccessible.
It is a terrifying feeling to be amidst a crowd and realize that you are further away from people than ever. You see dozens, maybe hundreds of faces, but no gaze truly seems to reach you. An overwhelming unease washes over you, a pressure of silence that surrounds you, as if no one can truly understand what is happening inside of you. You want to go somewhere, but you don’t know where. Life seems like a dead end, a road with no exit, and solutions are hard to find in the chaos of everyday life.
In these moments of crisis, facing this immense emptiness, we begin to understand that nothing in human affairs can truly answer our deepest questions. There is no salvation in superficial relationships, in constant agitation, or in the pursuit of validation. Everything boils down to a «multiplied nobody» – a crowd of faces, each with their own fears and desires, each searching for their own meaning, but none truly capable of pulling you out of your inner depths.
Perhaps the only true liberation comes from recognizing this fundamental loneliness and accepting it. The mountains, the sea, or music are among the few things that can touch this deep aspect of our being, not because they solve our problems, but because they offer us a window into a greater, vaster reality where we are not judged or expected to be anything other than what we are.
Life remains, in a way, a continuous search, a question without an answer. And in the midst of this search, loneliness becomes both a burden and an opportunity. Perhaps, in the end, we do not need to flee from it, but learn to live with it – to accept our limits and understand that true connection does not come from outside, but from a deep reconciliation with ourselves.